again, my apologies :)

So, I apologize, again.

It's been a million years since my last update!!
Cameron turned 2 on January 26. Time just goes by WAY too quickly for my liking!

This picture is of Cameron and I in November. It's amazing how fast they grow.

He's not talking a whole lot yet, but he can say Mum, Oh Yeah, Yup, No. The basics really. He's super smart though, always pointing at things asking what they are. I'm pretty sure the other day I heard a 'what's that?' from him.

He's just a ball of energy. He's always raring to go. Now that the weather is getting nicer, he wants to be outside as much as possible.

He's so helpful. He loves to help with the dishes whenever he can, and he pushes the little sweeper around to clean the rugs. He's also a huge help with his little cousin, who is 16 months old.

This is myself and Cameron, with my sister, Sarah and her daughter, Alexandra. Cameron and Alexandra are only 9 months apart in age, which is really nice. They get along great and love to play together. We were definately lucky to have children so close together.

Things for me are going fairly well lately. No constant man in my life right now, but that's also a nice thing. I like being able to do my own thing right now. When the time is right, I will find someone to share my life with who will take Cameron on as their own.

Cameron and I are still living with my parents for the moment. I am getting my debts paid off, and then we will venture out to a place of our own. I am aiming to move sometime this summer. I would rather move with little debt and actually be successful.

But all in all, things are good. Cameron is happy and healthy and that is the most important part to me.

I'll try to be a little more deligent and keep you all more up-to-date!! :)

a well overdue update

Here's my little man. He is almost a year and a half old now. It's so hard to believe. He's getting so big SO fast. Time just flies past.
There is so much to update on recently. And I apologize in advance to Tara if she has a heart attack with what I'm about to say.

John and I broke up last month. It kind of came out of no where in some ways, but in others, I think I saw it coming. He decided that he doesn't feel the same way about me anymore, and he moved out. We had problems before, but I really didn't think that it was as bad as it apparently was.

I'm doing alright now. John's all moved into his dad's, and out of here. Cameron is the one I feel bad for. He doesn't understand why Daddy is gone. But he is young, and in time, he will not remember a time when Daddy was here all the time.

It is probably better off this way. I have WAY less stress now. I am able to enjoy my life and take some time for myself. I am realizing that I can't be happy with someone when I am not happy with myself. And I'm not happy with how things are in my life right now.

But there is an up side. I have taken it upon myself to MAKE myself happy. Things that I have wanted to do for a long time, I am now doing. I have decided that it starts with the external. I have struggled with my weight the majority of my life. So thats where I have started. And in the past four weeks, I have lost 27 pounds. I have been eating better, and going on bike rides with my roommate, and I FEEL amazing!! It's really nice to be getting so many compliments about how good I am looking. Makes me feel 100 times better about my life right now. I still have about 80 pounds to lose before I'm where I want to be, but there is no rush to get there. One step at a time, one day at a time.

I am going to try to update MUCH more often. I can't believe how long it's been, and I'll get some new pictures of me up here soon!! :)

my first week

well my first week of work is in and done. it wasn't as bad as i thought. it's a nice break from my usual pace of being a mom. I miss Cameron like crazy while I'm at work though. But I know he's being taken care of.
I'm lucky enough to have a four day weekend now, which is much needed. I'm not used to this work thing...lol. my body is telling me to rest all the time, but with an 8 month son, there is no rest...like they say, no rest for the weary.
I'm sure it will get easier as time goes on. I'm hoping to only be there until spring anyways, so I just need to look at the light at the end of the tunnel!!

The photos

As promised before, here are a couple of the shots from our family photo shoot. Cameron was so cooperative that we got some really awesome pictures. As you can tell from the picture below, he was a very happy little man. He's just over 7 months old here. Growing so fast and he is so handsome!!! This next one is little Cameron with his dad. John clearly didn't take the time to shave, so he looks like a caveman, but aside from that, I think it's an awesome picture. Cameron just loves his dad. His face lights up whenever John comes near him. It's the cutest thing! You never know you can love someone so much until your child is born. He is my heart!
Here's one of our family shots. I don't think Cameron really knew what to think, but he looks happy none the less. I have the best family!!
Things are going pretty good. I start back to work on Saturday which isn't so much fun, but you have to do what is necessary to provide for your family, and this is what I have to do. I do have goals though!
In the next year, I am hoping to start up my own daycare so I can stay home with Cameron and the children to come in the future. But there are things that need to be done first to achieve this goal...
1. John and I have to pay off our debts. This is being started by me going back to work. It will help tremendously.
2. We need to move out of my parent's house and into a place of our own so I will have somewhere to run this daycare.
3. I need kids to watch...haha.

We are hoping for Child #2 in a year or so. We have planned to start trying in about 6 months. That way Cameron will be around 2 when our second child is born. That's what we're aiming for anyways. Mother Nature always has her own agenda, but when the time is right God will provide us with the child and the spirit that has chosen to join our family. I look forward to that day.
I hope you are all well, and that life is treating you wonderfully! Hope to hear from some of you soon!!! Loves!

Photo Shoot

John and I took Cameron to Barrie today for his first photo shoot! He was SO good. I'm still in shock at how well behaved he was. In less than an hour and a half, the photographer had taken 2000 photos. She had no more memory cards, so that was the end! haha. We should get the discs from the shoot in about a week, so I'll put some up here when the time comes. He looked so handsome!!
So the countdown to working is getting closer. In 14 days, I will be at work right now. It's kind of scary. But I know that my babysitter will take good care of Cameron. Sometimes I feel like I'm going back to work just to pay for the sitter though. But my mom will take him some nights too, so that will cost me a lot less.
I'm slowly getting my sale group on Facebook organized so I can hopefully sell some stuff that's kicking around here.
Tomorrow, we're going to open Cameron's savings account. I'm pretty excited. I swear the kid has more money than me, but I suppose since I have none, that it isn't very hard to do...HAHA!
Until next time...

Another Chapter Ended

I sit here slightly depressed. I think it's just hitting me now that I have to go back to work in less than 3 weeks. It really does suck. I look at Cameron, sleeping in his crib, and it hurts, because soon, that won't be me putting him to bed. I'll be at work when Cameron goes to sleep. I'll leave him with the sitter at 3pm and won't see him again til morning. This is not going to be easy, but money-wise, it is something that I have to do right now.
My sister and her husband are in the process of moving in to my mom's house here aswell. Mom's little three bedroom house with 6 adults and soon to be 2 babies. It will definately be an interesting experience. I'm not really sure how we're all going to cope with it, but all we can do is our best at this point I suppose.
Living on your own is just too expensive right now. And I thank my parents for letting John and I live here to offset some costs. We're hoping that we will be able to move in the spring, but we'll have to see how the money situation is then, and if we can save up enough money to make that work right now.
I started a babysitting job in the mornings, so from 6am to 3:30pm, I have an 11 month old and my 7 month old. It is definately interesting and it keeps me very busy, but I'm enjoying it all the same.
Thats all for now I think.
(Tara: are you impressed that I'm back again so soon?? cuz i am!!! haha)
Until next time!!

just for Tara...haha

So this update is for Tara. The last one wasn't good enough...haha.

Well, John and I are currently living with my parents. We are trying to pay off some debts and save up some money. My sister Sarah, and her husband are currently pregnant aswell. Sarah is due on October 10th. Her husband, Clayton, is living here with us right now too, while Sarah finishes up working in Wasaga Beach before her maternity leave. It's a pretty full house right now because Matt is home for the summer aswell.

I go back to work in 6 weeks. I'm still working at Walmart for the time being, but I am thinking about starting a daycare in the spring so I can be home with Cameron.

This is the little man a couple days ago. He's going to be a little charmer I'm sure. I'll post again soon. I really will try harder this time!!

my apologies.

Poor Tara has been hounding me for an update, and I've just been slacking. I'll admit it. So here it goes.
This is a picture of my belly when I was 36 weeks pregnant. So I still had four weeks to go and I was MASSIVE! I was definately ready for the baby to come out...haha.
I was induced on January 25th, because he just wasn't coming on his own. I had to be induced twice. He was a stubborn baby. Labour kicked in around midnight. I went back to the hospital at 3am, and was monitored for a few hours. At 11:30am on the 26th, they broke my water, and from here the real pain began...haha. I had morphine and Gravol to help. When they broke my water, I was 4-5 centimetres dialated. Not too shabby. But when they came back to check me at 4:30, I was still only 5 centimetres, and the doctor couldn't even feel the baby's head. So he decided it was in the best interest of myself, and the baby if they did a c-section. So I was wheeled down to the OR, and the baby was born at 5:02pm. He weighed 8 pounds and 3 ounces and was 52 centimetres long. His name is Cameron Gregory Burns. This picture is the first picture taken of him.

Cameron is six and a half months old now. It goes by so fast. He weighs 19 pounds. He can sit up, and roll over and talks all the time. He is so happy. He is growing up way to fast for my liking though.
I go back to work in six weeks. The thought of leaving him every day just kills me but I know i have to do it. But spending this time at home with him has been the best time of my life, and I can't wait to do it all over again! (in a year or two...haha)
Thats my quick update for now. I'll try to be more diligent with my updates!