a well overdue update

Here's my little man. He is almost a year and a half old now. It's so hard to believe. He's getting so big SO fast. Time just flies past.
There is so much to update on recently. And I apologize in advance to Tara if she has a heart attack with what I'm about to say.

John and I broke up last month. It kind of came out of no where in some ways, but in others, I think I saw it coming. He decided that he doesn't feel the same way about me anymore, and he moved out. We had problems before, but I really didn't think that it was as bad as it apparently was.

I'm doing alright now. John's all moved into his dad's, and out of here. Cameron is the one I feel bad for. He doesn't understand why Daddy is gone. But he is young, and in time, he will not remember a time when Daddy was here all the time.

It is probably better off this way. I have WAY less stress now. I am able to enjoy my life and take some time for myself. I am realizing that I can't be happy with someone when I am not happy with myself. And I'm not happy with how things are in my life right now.

But there is an up side. I have taken it upon myself to MAKE myself happy. Things that I have wanted to do for a long time, I am now doing. I have decided that it starts with the external. I have struggled with my weight the majority of my life. So thats where I have started. And in the past four weeks, I have lost 27 pounds. I have been eating better, and going on bike rides with my roommate, and I FEEL amazing!! It's really nice to be getting so many compliments about how good I am looking. Makes me feel 100 times better about my life right now. I still have about 80 pounds to lose before I'm where I want to be, but there is no rush to get there. One step at a time, one day at a time.

I am going to try to update MUCH more often. I can't believe how long it's been, and I'll get some new pictures of me up here soon!! :)